Sunday, August 01, 2010
♥ 2:15 pm
School's starting again.
It's been way too long since i've written anything here. Just been, well, too lazy to. Plus i don't know or think if anyone still reads this blog.
Doing relief at ACS(P) has really made me see the new generations of AC boys, and honestly, i'm not too hopeful. Teaching them for that long period of time makes me apprehensive towards having kids. really.
Taiwan was fun, and it was great to get out of Singapore for a while. Shopping was disappointing though.
And oh yes. I found out i was severely screwed over.
When i watch How I Met Your Mother, i think many people laugh at Barney's 'Bro Code'. Admittedly, a lot of the clauses in it are just for comedic effect, and to emphasize Barney's way of life.
However, there's one part i have to agree. The one that bros never go after a girl which another bro has an interest in.
You screwed me over, and you don't even seem to know how much it hurt me.
Every time i try to do something, the ending seems to become worse and worse. I seriously hope neither of them were my fault.
This is seriously fucked up.
Now as i am 24 hours from becoming a Law Yr1 Student, i hope i can put all this behind me, and concentrate on what's important. my degree.
It's still hard to forget, and for the sake of all our friends, i have tried to forgive. Forget? don't count on it.
Thursday, March 18, 2010
♥ 5:12 pm
Not many people still come here. thus this makes it the best place on the world-wide-web to express myself these days.
For the last 3 weeks, i've been doing some reflection about myself. I don't understand one thing though.
I've seen some of the people i know (not naming names). They can go to clubs, pick up girls (who they know are already in a relationship), get them high and drag them back to their pads (with a devil-may-care attitude to boot).
Well other kind souls like us, who refuse to prey on drunk women (and have some respect for girls, and don't treat them like objects of lust like most men), can't have the girl they want.
Let me think. i'm funny, i'm witty, i'm a (going to be at least) law student, i'm not in to fool around.
what's wrong with me? i just don't get how God works sometimes. is showing respect to all those around me a wrong thing?
should i adopt a hell-be-care attitude?
i will not compromise myself.
these few weeks have also made me feel pretty bored. most of my friends are studying (either overseas or locally, doesn't really make a difference to me). everyone is busy, and i'm lonely.
now i fully appreciate what my friends bring to the table. now that i'm missing it, i'm appreciate it more.
quite like human nature no? you only appreciate something when it's gone.
i have a few mysteries left in my life. one of them has been (for the last 4 years) and is up north. maybe i should blatantly push aside the obstacles (like some people i know).
no i'm not that kind of person.
my life is a confusing mess recently.
Monday, March 01, 2010
♥ 12:41 am
and so it's over.
if only you would have given us a chance. what's more, you know you should have.
i've nothing to say. i just hope we'll still be friends.
i pray that you'll be happy.
Saturday, February 27, 2010
♥ 1:37 am
this has been one of the worst 48 hours of my life. I've resorted to watching ahead of my 8pm VV Drama series, playing crazy amounts of Rome Total War: Barbarian Invasion and drinking whisky and beer to get me through without thinking that much.
however, when i'm alone, my mind wonders.
i find out my fate tmr. all i plead
It's the little things They pulled me in and I'm defenceless I try to ignore like I've done before but it's just useless I've made up my mind that I'm gonna let you in And I'm not afraid but I have to say This is gonna hurt if it ever ends But somehow you out shattered my defence This is gonna hurt if it ever starts So promise you'll be careful with my heart It's the things you do They made me fall hard for you and I can't help it And it's every day that I feel this way So just don't stop it I've made up my mind that I'm gonna let you in And I'm not afraid but I have to say This is gonna hurt if it ever ends But somehow you out shattered my defence This is gonna hurt if it ever starts So promise you'll be careful with my heart I won't make excuses They just all seem useless You don't have the time I guess I'll take my chances now that I know love is on the line This is gonna hurt if it ever ends But somehow you out shattered my defence This is gonna hurt if it ever starts So promise you'll be careful with my heart Careful with my heart Careful with my heart
i have no further things to say.
Sunday, February 21, 2010
♥ 9:39 pm
it wasn't great to be back. down with tonsillitis ever since SQ 319 landed at Changi Airport, so this is my first time blogging about my trip, and whatever i've been thinking about ever since CNY.
I could give a city by city run-down of my trip, which i will shortly, but the experience of travelling along alone with a bunch of guys is really different then with your parents. You have to be careful, and watch out for one another. quite different.
Ok
London:
I love London. It's easy to get around, and people aren't so judgy about Asian dudes here. Vibes in London are always great, olden architecture mixed with modern culture and amenities. awesome. Necessities are almost everywhere, with Sainsbury and Tesco all just around the corner.
Liverpool:
A much smaller city, with Anfield obviously being the main attraction, but we still got lost trying to find a Tesco at 2300hrs, and got caught in snow and hail. Still pleasant enough.
Glasgow:
Too dark and gloomy and night, didn't see much of it in the day. Architecture at Glasgow Central Train station was good though.
The Scottish Highlands:
Better in summer, but still great in winter. You could picture Scottish clansmen charging down, claymore in hand, hewing down rows of Redcoats.
Edinburgh:
Typical Scottish city, castles and the Royal Mile, and not much else.
Madrid:
Rather unsafe, people not as friendly as in Barcelona, hard to find a fast food. But Chinese storekeepers do help in pointing out thieves.
Barcelona:
Much much nicer that Madrid, with better weather and more friendly people.
Paris:
Helps if you speak French, but no city in the world oozes such class and atas-ness
Ok now that i'm back from Europe, i have a few priorities
1) Find a bloody job
2) Start reading some of my legal books
3) Solve my other problem
3 would be hard, but i must do it. There's too much in common for me to throw it away.
Thursday, January 14, 2010
♥ 11:13 am
I haven't been here for a while.
It's been quite an interesting week. Made better by the fact that i've managed to purchase tickets to Man U vs Man City (27th Jan, Carling Cup S-finals), and Liverpool vs Bolton (EPL 30 Jan).
Compared to the United ticketing sales office, the Liverpool one was really amateurish. I think we spent 15 USD on Skype credits to try to get onto the queue for tickets. Plus it didn't help that the stupid Anfield Road song plays during the queue, and also the advert for Anfield Stadium tours.
But oh well. everything's done well. and it's slightly more than a week to London! and 7 days to ORD!. single digits!
Recently i've been pondering about the effect of not-seeing-someone-on-a-more-frequent-basis on attraction. It sucks that i don't see her that often. but still, busy is busy.
I've been thinking about giving up, but i don't give up, not unless the outcome is 100% certain. I have to try. she's too special to me for me to give up like that. zzzzzzz
ok xin if you are reading this you're right. i'm emo.
wahahaha
i can stay awake, just to hear you breathing.........
Sunday, December 20, 2009
♥ 1:56 am
no one every reads here anymore. which is good. it's like a little private piece of me i can keep publicly.
I think it's hard to maintain a proper relationship over the sms/facebook/msn. it sucks that i can't see you more often. it really feels that it's over before it even had a chance to begin.
orion is right, i am quite sensitive to these kind of things.
i think the further the distance, the greater the pining. oh wells. i just hope you liked the book.
难以忘记初次见你 一双迷人的眼睛
在我脑海里 你的身影 挥散不去
握你的双手感觉你的温柔
真的有点透不过气 你的天真 我想珍惜
看到你受委屈 我会伤心
只怕我自己会爱上你 不敢让自己靠的太近
怕我没什么能够给你 爱你也需要很大的勇气
只怕我自己会爱上你 也许有天会情不自禁
想念只让自己苦了自己 爱上你是我情非得已
爱上你是我情非得已
i really like you.. it's just..
