Sunday, April 27, 2008
♥ 8:39 pm
The last week...
i have been thinking a lot. wondering what to do next.
i've been thrown obstacles in my way. i have been obstructed by bureaucracy, i have been hindered by miscommunications, i have been stopped by stupidity.
now i wonder. now i think. now i consider my next move.
to shores abroad? or to another calling in our island? our island that is unwilling to accept changes, reluctant to accommodate alternatives..
can i afford the burden (both financial and social) of living abroad?
can i live without those dearest to me..
this wouldn't have happened if I had not chosen to wear the glorious title of a pioneer...
my instincts were right in 2003, if only i trusted them...
Sunday, April 20, 2008
♥ 12:32 pm
It's all a lie..
everything that we have blindly accepted as fact is true everywhere else, but in our own home island.
Who said that our programme is better than the original?
Who said that our programme is more recognized worldwide than the original?
How can locals have a cut-off grade higher than oxbridge?
fucking hell we've been scammed.
i don't want to say much, I just want to wish all the lucky few all the best.
This place is screwed up.
Sunday, April 06, 2008
♥ 8:08 pm
I think i'll only be blogging on a weekly basis now, due to my commitments.
(no it's not a commitment you fool...)
Anyway it has been uneventful week (with regard to STC/NS stuff), and eventful (in everything else)
STC has been usual, loads of lectures on thing that are (self-admittedly) depended on unit procedures, and mostly learned on the job.
The only thing i have been doing that was mind-stimulating was reading my book (Manchu and Han, A Study on Inter-racial Divisions in Late Qing and Early Republican China)
ok chim i know. My bunk mates say that too.. But this is balanced out by the FoxTrot and Dilbert comics..
On nights out, i checked my email
"We have considered your application thoroughly, and we regret that we are unable to offer you a PSC scholarship"
First thought: "argh damn it"
Second thought: "Haha i didn't expect much from it. It's ok. now back to playing PSP till 2130"
Next day, during break between the time-sucking hole of lectures...
"Hello, is this Jonathan?"
"Yeah"
"I'm calling from Ministry of Foreign Affairs. In your PSC application you stated that your first choice is our ministry, and we would like you to come down for a psychometric test." (Very quickly)
"huh, i didn't get that, could you kindly repeat?"
(repeat)
"Ok, so when is this test?"
"We'll call you back later"
3 hours later
"ok the test is tomorrow? Can you make it?"
"I'm in camp, i'll have to give you my commander's number"
30 min later
"ok, your commander said there is no problem."
First thought: "WOO HOO BOOK OUT!!!! STAY OUT!!! NO STANDBY BUNK!!NO HLS!!!"
Second thought: "Cool looks like i still have a chance at MFA"
you can see how screwed up my life is now. My first thought (like many people i know who got called for all sorts of interviews/tests blah blah blah) is that they can book out and not eat the SFI food. Their second thought is of the interview proper. what they're going to say, what they are going to discuss.
Is this our actual priority in life?
Going to MFA (the building is awesome by the way..) and waiting in the room for other 'testees' to come. It was quite interesting to see their reactions.
"hey what are you doing here?"
it turned out that all 4 of us were IBers... yongjia, cheryl and xinling...
well at least the test ended early.
I realise that most of our esteemed ladies have purpose in their lives. Their work is beneficial to the society in large. They find meaning in their work...
'ARTI!!! INCOMING!!"
well what we do is beneficial to society as well...
damn i want to go airforce school... grrr
(In other news)
Yesterday was KD and Ash's birthday. too bad ash didn't come.
Kd had an exceptional 'Fish and Co' birthday celebration haha...
Too bad i couldn't stay for the after-cake playground talk-cock session. had to go for another talk-cock session with V3 people..
why must we cut short hair.. lol
ok better prepare myself for book-in tmr..
I pray for a peace of mind. Let your guiding hand be on everything i do. Give me the serenity to accept everything that comes my way. Give me the humility to accept setbacks.
I pray that God you would grant me my chosen path in life.
Like Cherie said, God knows what's best for me.
Labels: Birthdays, God, NS, Scholarships, School
